Finally back to blog .
actually not very interested in blogging anymore
cos i dont see de point of telling everyone about my life
whatever it is .... just a simple and brief update of what i have been doing


been working through out de holidays .
all introduced by kelly services :)
i finally know why my parents always say money is hard to earn
i've really experienced quite abit through all few temporary jobs i took up during the holidays
from unreasonable boss , to factory system and even having to experience how is it to be in the kindergarten with children screaming and crying every single minute
and my pay is running out too fast .... i really need to cut down on my expenses.

school reopen, everything have gone back to where we started again .
projects , groupings ....
im really afraid of conflicts and unnecessary issues because of project again .
im afraid of losing friendships and stuffs because of work
its just not irrelevant and logical
i dont know what am i typing now , since my brain is already hald shut down

whatever it is ....
IM SUPER DUPER SICK OF EVERYTHING ....
LIFE SUCKS

baby ... i will be lying if i say i wont miss you for de next 3 weeks :D

just a short update about what's going on :)
exams are like finally over ...
the lone awaited holidays are finally here
although unsure if results this semester will be okay .
but whatever it is .. f**k it la ...
its over:D

starting work for 3 weeks starting next monday .
referred by kelly services to work for some NTUC healthcare thingy ..
its going to be damn boring i swear ..
cause its at ubi which means lunch alone and everything alone.
hahas... nvm ... shall just think about de pay at the end of the day :D
and its kinda pathetic actually (the pay)
nvm la.... dont have fish prawn also not bad :D

things between me and ben fang had been so far so good .
if he gives in to me =no quarrel
if he doesnt = quarrel
but things will always eventually turn out okay ..
and my bf is understanding ... that i must really admit
and i have no idea why he trust me that much ...
hahahas... my past record haven't been good huhs?
lols... but nvm , this is one relationship that i wont want to ruin anything
so i will know my limits and what i'm doing.
ppl give way to me cannot take it granted ....
and my bf is DAMN SHY !!!!
i dont know why sometimes i just feel like he's like some small kid ..
hahahas.... :P but thats what make him cute ...
okok ppl will start saying that its gross and stuffs.
but beauty lies in de eyes of de beholder :)
his ultra small , tiny eyes ...
hahahahahahahahs.... you actually compete to see whose eyes are smaller ..
and of cos i dont wanna win this time .. hahahhas... :P

and i guess there's some problem with blogger ..
shall upload out pictures some other time
:P

just let things stay this way okay :)

seriously speaking i'm quite tired of thinking also.
i know i will make you feel damn stressed up and stuffs because i'm always asking you the same and silly questions.
so now even if upset i cant voice out.
i really dont feel like thinking anymore.
lets see how long will this last okay ?
cos i see it coming to a end already .

i dont wanna be de one requesting for stuffs anymore .
i experienced all de shit kelvin neo gave me before.
all i want now is someone there for me when i need him.
yah , i know its gonna be difficult and our "honey moon period" is over already !!

so you're just gonna be another kelvin .
maybe thats just me ?
afraid to lose everything i have now .
but i guess you just dont understand my dear!!!
although , you said i'm not a burden to you ,
but the way you phrase your words is the opposite la.

fuck it man , just when i thought you will be different ..
you prove me wrong again.

i'm just gonna keep quiet for now and wait for things to happen :)
thanks :)

have been kinda bust these few days.
quiz EVERYDAY since monday .

and i'm supposed to be studying now,
but i just cant concentrate already .
my brain is like all blank now . even if i'm gonna stare at the slides , nothing will go in.

okay, just to update , ben and i is okay already
he's not that dumb/gong also la.
at least he knows how to clarify with the girl :)
i just wanna make sure he trust me :D

talked to ben quite a bit today,
we just sat down and started talking about stuffs,
and i guess we know each other better again :)

benjamin fang ... thanks :)

i just dont know if you really know how i feel ..
but it really doesnt feels good la , my dear ..

knowing that someone bad mouth me and there's nothing i can do ..
be careful of me ..
yah, i think you really should
and also start considering about this relationship.

i lead my life and i dont want things like that to happen,
as my boyfriend what i expect from you is just telling me
you will never belief what others say and assure me that
you will never allow ppl to talk about me.

whatever la hors?
just when you need to think about us ,
i guess i need to also :)

hahas... this post shall b dedicated to joan yong !!!

after my exams than we go play okay!!!
it has nothing to do if i' attached anot la..
haiyo ...
who cares about him right ?
:P:P:P:P
we go out and look at other guys:D
see got potential ones anot :D


AND i'm not zhong she qin you okay!!!!