MICHtan's space

24 Oct 2009

2009-10-23T11:03:00.000-07:00

Finally back to blog .
actually not very interested in blogging anymore
cos i dont see de point of telling everyone about my life
whatever it is .... just a simple and brief update of what i have been doing

been working through out de holidays .
all introduced by kelly services :)
i finally know why my parents always say money is hard to earn
i've really experienced quite abit through all few temporary jobs i took up during the holidays
from unreasonable boss , to factory system and even having to experience how is it to be in the kindergarten with children screaming and crying every single minute
and my pay is running out too fast .... i really need to cut down on my expenses.

school reopen, everything have gone back to where we started again .
projects , groupings ....
im really afraid of conflicts and unnecessary issues because of project again .
im afraid of losing friendships and stuffs because of work
its just not irrelevant and logical
i dont know what am i typing now , since my brain is already hald shut down

whatever it is ....
IM SUPER DUPER SICK OF EVERYTHING ....
LIFE SUCKS

29 August 2009

2009-08-29T08:40:00.000-07:00

baby ... i will be lying if i say i wont miss you for de next 3 weeks :D

just a short update about what's going on :)
exams are like finally over ...
the lone awaited holidays are finally here
although unsure if results this semester will be okay .
but whatever it is .. f**k it la ...
its over:D

starting work for 3 weeks starting next monday .
referred by kelly services to work for some NTUC healthcare thingy ..
its going to be damn boring i swear ..
cause its at ubi which means lunch alone and everything alone.
hahas... nvm ... shall just think about de pay at the end of the day :D
and its kinda pathetic actually (the pay)
nvm la.... dont have fish prawn also not bad :D

things between me and ben fang had been so far so good .
if he gives in to me =no quarrel
if he doesnt = quarrel
but things will always eventually turn out okay ..
and my bf is understanding ... that i must really admit
and i have no idea why he trust me that much ...
hahahas... my past record haven't been good huhs?
lols... but nvm , this is one relationship that i wont want to ruin anything
so i will know my limits and what i'm doing.
ppl give way to me cannot take it granted ....
and my bf is DAMN SHY !!!!
i dont know why sometimes i just feel like he's like some small kid ..
hahahas.... :P but thats what make him cute ...
okok ppl will start saying that its gross and stuffs.
but beauty lies in de eyes of de beholder :)
his ultra small , tiny eyes ...
hahahahahahahahs.... you actually compete to see whose eyes are smaller ..
and of cos i dont wanna win this time .. hahahhas... :P

and i guess there's some problem with blogger ..
shall upload out pictures some other time
:P

11 Aug 2009

2009-08-11T05:42:00.001-07:00

just let things stay this way okay :)

5 August 2009

2009-08-05T04:38:00.000-07:00

seriously speaking i'm quite tired of thinking also.
i know i will make you feel damn stressed up and stuffs because i'm always asking you the same and silly questions.
so now even if upset i cant voice out.
i really dont feel like thinking anymore.
lets see how long will this last okay ?
cos i see it coming to a end already .

i dont wanna be de one requesting for stuffs anymore .
i experienced all de shit kelvin neo gave me before.
all i want now is someone there for me when i need him.
yah , i know its gonna be difficult and our "honey moon period" is over already !!

so you're just gonna be another kelvin .
maybe thats just me ?
afraid to lose everything i have now .
but i guess you just dont understand my dear!!!
although , you said i'm not a burden to you ,
but the way you phrase your words is the opposite la.

fuck it man , just when i thought you will be different ..
you prove me wrong again.

i'm just gonna keep quiet for now and wait for things to happen :)
thanks :)

5 August 2009

2009-08-04T09:48:00.000-07:00

have been kinda bust these few days.
quiz EVERYDAY since monday .

and i'm supposed to be studying now,
but i just cant concentrate already .
my brain is like all blank now . even if i'm gonna stare at the slides , nothing will go in.

okay, just to update , ben and i is okay already
he's not that dumb/gong also la.
at least he knows how to clarify with the girl :)
i just wanna make sure he trust me :D

talked to ben quite a bit today,
we just sat down and started talking about stuffs,
and i guess we know each other better again :)

benjamin fang ... thanks :)

2 August 2009

2009-08-02T03:29:00.000-07:00

i just dont know if you really know how i feel ..
but it really doesnt feels good la , my dear ..

knowing that someone bad mouth me and there's nothing i can do ..
be careful of me ..
yah, i think you really should
and also start considering about this relationship.

i lead my life and i dont want things like that to happen,
as my boyfriend what i expect from you is just telling me
you will never belief what others say and assure me that
you will never allow ppl to talk about me.

whatever la hors?
just when you need to think about us ,
i guess i need to also :)

2 August 2009

2009-08-02T02:32:00.000-07:00

hahas... this post shall b dedicated to joan yong !!!

after my exams than we go play okay!!!
it has nothing to do if i' attached anot la..
haiyo ...
who cares about him right ?
:P:P:P:P
we go out and look at other guys:D
see got potential ones anot :D

AND i'm not zhong she qin you okay!!!!

30 July 2009

2009-07-30T07:15:00.000-07:00

when i just say i will stop being so sticky to benjaming and stuffs.
i broke down in front of him today .

of cos not because we of things between the both of us .
but because of project,

i have de dumbest boyfriend man .
because i was damn stressed when my project couldnt work
so when he came and find me in de lab after his lessons.
i told him to go home first ,
den he stood there for a while
not knowing what happened to me.
so i stop my work for a while and told him to go home first
and guess what he really went off !!!!!
usually when a girlfriend tells her boyfriend that
he'll will tell her , its okay , he will wait for her and stuffs right ?
my didnt leh!!! and he really walked off leh ..
shihong was like stunned also lo ..
wau lau !!!
so i ran out and just hug him ...
(YES!!!! IN SCHOOL !!!! )
i didnt even bother if anyone will come out from the lab of whatsoever ..
i just needed to hug my boyfriend.
hahas, and i wet his shirt .. hahahahhahahahahs....
who cares!!! i cant possibily hug someone else already right ? hahas
and i finally feel that i'm attached again after so many days of "misunderstanding" & "lack of communication" between de both of us.

and benjamin fang shi jie ...
you better remember wad we say in de car today okay!!!!
:D you promised de :D

29 July 2009

2009-07-28T07:46:00.000-07:00

i dont wanna be too dependent on you .
the feeling of not having you by my side nowadays SUCK!!!
i feel useless,
but i dont wanna let you know that i'm feeling this way
(i know its kinda stupid if i say i dont wanna let you know and i'm blogging about it and everyone can read -_-""" !!!)

but it just dont feel good when you're not replying my msg-es (although i know you're busy with projects these few days)
maybe i'm de one feeling emotional for the past week ...
(PMS !! HAHA)
darling, i miss you:(

1)i'm going to be more indepedent ,
2)cannot be childish in front of you anymore :(
3)cannot disturb you when you're driving, cannot hug your hand
4)cut down on msging

and alot alot more , but i have to do my project now :(

28 July 2009

2009-07-27T09:01:00.000-07:00

hahas.. i just found out ..
i'm blogging quite frequently now .
like almost every night.

trying to d/l oracle for my database project now.
while waiting for the program to install .
i was blog hopping... and came across joan's blog.
hahas... read wad she post ..
the things her bf is willing to do for her :)

suddenly thought of Benjamin Fang .. hahas
(i think i should blog with his name now , darling sounds too mushy)
hahas...
i suddenly miss him , its like really damn sudden . hahas..
what joan said was right ...
cherish whatever you have in front of you now .

i mean i cant say he've done the sweetest thing for me,
but whatever he have done so far is really sufficient ..
he's there almost everytime i need him ..
maybe what i've gone through before this
(i shouldnt mention names , but i guess almost everyone know who am i talking about)
what Benjamin have done for me is really so much more.

although , we may have times when our point of view are different.
but i know those are just very small matters.
and we can overcome it :)
whatever it is ...
i'm just going to treasure whatever i have now .
:):):)

i miss you !!!

27 July 2009

2009-07-26T10:12:00.000-07:00

i think i really need a diet !!!

no more nonsense like i'm attached and i'm just going to let myself
gain so much weight ...
have been really eating quite alot these days.
my tummy is really coming out la..
super unglam !!!
and i dont even dare to wear smaller shirts nowadays..
my mom even commented that i look like so "da fei po"
eewww....

i shall start to cut down on carbohydrate and protein :)
more intake of fruits and vegetables..

people must motivate me alright ?

AND JOAN YONG !!! when are we going for gym !!! ???
like damn long already huhs ?

25 July 2009

2009-07-25T08:29:00.000-07:00

i'm like super sleepy now lo ..
1) i woke up kinda early today
2) i just ate medicine for flu

BUT i promised to wait for darling!!!!
YAWNS!!!!! :D
darling , faster reach home la :(:(:(

24 July 2009

2009-07-24T08:39:00.000-07:00

went back to school to do internet appliances today ..
i guess i have more or less finished up the project already..
(lets just hope that nothing happens when we compile everything together)
:):)
did from 9am to 3pm

darling had to do this major project also:)
he came down to my lab later to look for me ..
and we went to bukit timah to eat :D
darling had some dont know what ayam nasi thingy and i had chicken noodles(basically just fried noddles with chicken meat)
:):)

den darling con me to see CAR !!!
hump ... still bluff me say go teban garden ..
hahas... but never mind la... hahas...
:):)

went to labrador park after that
(dont know for wad)
just sat near the railings and talk abit ..

darling knows that i'm feeling insecured and is trying his best to not make me feel this way
but the stupid thing is he hugged me and asked if i'm secured that way
(wau liew !!! its not physically insecured la my dear , i have enough fats to make myself feel secured la !!!!)

left around 7 plus caused darling was having a terrible headache:)

darling thanks or everything , i know you were having a very bad headache today but still wanted to go out caused you've promised to go out with me today. and constantly trying to do small little things to make me feel better when i'm stress or upset.
i may not show how much i appreciate got that you've done for me , but just wanna tell you , i can really see how much you wanna make me feel happier when you see that i'm upset :)
you said my minus points are too fierce , and i like inflicting pain on you
hahas... the fierce part i really cant help it for the inflicting pain part i will try my best okay ..
and i was really joking when i said you didnt accompany me in the night and just go and sleep before me . i know i'm de abnormal one who dont sleep in de night :)
darling , just wanna tell you i lub you okay .. hahas:D
(off to lala land, you promised to come fetch me cause we always cant find our way to block3 )
hahahahaha

edited
and i forgot to add , darling is freaking stupid !!!
cos i was damn hungry while doing project , so i called melvin to acc me for breakfast/lunch ..
so i called darling when i was walkiing to the bus stop cos melvin wanted to smoke.
the next thing i know , i was darling walking out also .
and he pretended that he came out to smoke.
obviously knowing that i dont like him to smoke .
den on de car later , he admit that he came out to "spot-check" ..
damn dumb right ??
hahas... but i know he did this cos he's concerned about ME!!!
hahas... darling i love you although you realy did something damn dumb today .
hahas

22 July 2009

2009-07-21T17:31:00.000-07:00

sometimes , i will be thinking if we're really suitable for each other.
his interest , the topics he talks about.
will there be a day when you suddenly find that we have run out of topics to talk about ?

20 July 2009

2009-07-19T09:53:00.000-07:00

have been really lazy to update my blog recently ,

and since i cant slp now .. so why not :)

actually i'm feeling kinda happy now ..

my life somehow changed quite a bit ..

without the constant thought of him anymore.

it feels like i have finally managed to escape and let go of alot of things

i have learnt that when things are not meant to be yours..

there really no point trying to get it :):)

however if things are meant to be ,

girls are just supposed to sit there and wait for things to happen .

hahas... thanks benjamin fang shi jie :D

its been quite some time since i last felt like that . :D

hahas.. always lookinf forward to see you in de morning ..

those things you've done for me .. hahas

i always remember every one of them ..

remember de 90 years promise okay :D

although everyone may say that i'm like really

giving him alot of stress and always wanting to win

but i'm joking la.:)

and i know he understands:D

12 July 2009

2009-07-12T00:22:00.001-07:00

was blog hopping and came across this link

not sure what is it about ...
but if i'm not wrong its some free sample kinda thing ...
so ....just click on de link below okay :D
thanks thanks ... (caused its so kind of points thingy ) :)

http://www.fr3b.com/referral_program.php?referrer_token=226a7bd7759c02a66eae3faf20a38d36

12 July 2009

2009-07-12T00:07:00.000-07:00

he's like sleeping , and i'm like damn bored!!!!
shouldnt have let him take a nap huhs :(
hahas.. anyway ... things are getting better i guess:D
and i didnt expect him to know how to "sweet talk"
kinda weird actually ...
hahahahahahhahas...

12 July 2009

2009-07-11T10:33:00.000-07:00

yup .. you're :)

(something between the both of us ):)

i'm going to slp now ... :D

2009-07-10T09:08:00.000-07:00

when i have nothing better to do ..
and there's no one and nothing to entertain me :)
i did some stupid quiz :D
results
tata!!!!

Your view on yourself:(quiz 1)
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on educationYou may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

The Real You(quiz 2 )
Here is the analysis:
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

What's your personality love style?( quiz 3)
Here is the analysis:Love at first sight is your style. You are not fussy about who you fall for, and often there seems to be no rational reason for you deciding to love someone, it just happens and you'll follow your heart. When you do fall for someone, you fall completely. Your love is somewhat child-like, or what people like to call "puppy love". While following your heart is important, you should also remember to use your head occasionally.

What type of personality do you have?(quiz 4 )
Bright and CheerfulYou are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

What does being a friend really mean to you?( quiz 5)
You value your friendships: 30%You value your friendships quite a lot but you don't like to show your feelings to others. You would rather keep your feelings to yourself than share them with your friends. You might get a pleasant surprise if you are more open about caring for people - they will probably let you know that you're special to them, too.

10 July 2009

2009-07-10T08:27:00.000-07:00

like i've said , the day i can let go of everything is the day , i will delete everything i blog about him before :)
i have done so :) (although , i'm not sure if i had cos i'm like half awake now .. lols)
deleting everything now doesnt affects me at all :)
i actually feel happy, the burden and doubts woke me up ..
i cant deny i will still think about the times we had together once in a while.
BUT !!!! i will never wanna go back to those days. :)

just a simple update about what's going on ...
just having lessons like every single day , but after term break , we found out that we tend to slack more already ... skipping lecture and sometimes even lessons (what we call clear leave) hahas:)

i really have nothing much to blog about :)

anyway .. people may think that i'm happier now and stuffs ... true enough i WAS ..
but no more , after certain incidents and maybe misunderstandings ...
i dont feel those kind of concern anymore. but i know i did try :)
so whatever is de outcome isnt up to me to decide :)

tts all people :)

i miss him :(
yup... that fast ?
why huhs...
i feel weird!!!
especially when he seems so cant be bothered at all ..
going to sleep when he say talk online
i can understand cos he's really tired today .
but at least i msg that sounds abit better right ?
argh!!!
i know i know .. shihong is going to tell me the same old thing again
"he also not your who arhs !!!" hais..
forget it man :(

20 June 2009

2009-06-20T08:26:00.000-07:00

i have no idea why but recently i can really get easily fustrated when people who do not have any rights to , start asking and prompting about me when things that they ask have nothing to do with them at all .
just take for example

just 5 minutes ago , a guy whom i dont even talk to came to ask me why am i still in sch (time now is 11.28 pm btw) but do you see the point or not ? even if i'm still in school so wad?i dont have to answer to him do i ? dumb ass

few days back , some guy came and wrote on my wall in facebook saying something like "fa fu le , see your photo last time versus now face rounder le" (i think thats wad he say , lazy to check , but the meaning is this la ) i'm really not nagry about the fact of he saying like i put on weight or something .. really I SWEAR ... but even if i did , what has it got to do with him, he is really someone i didnt even talk to once la ...

and yah. few days back i saw a friend at Bugis street when i was out shopping with my mother. okay so later in de night he msged me but i was really dozing off cos i just got back from camp the previous day , so i just told him i will text him the next day instead.which i didnt , so he msged me somewhere near evening saying that i lied and stuffs .. nvm, and after some msges i really dont see the need to reply anymore cos the conversation is getting no where at all. So guess wad? i started to questioned me online later that night like some criminal la. i should say he interogated me instead. den i just told him i was having facial earlier ( which was true) , thats why i couldnt reply him .. and guess wad? he went like that " yea right" like WTF!!!!!! i have to answer to him ar? furthermore he's is like damn hell attached ... FUCKED UP right ?

and yah , there's this camp which we knew from camp , i wouldnt say his name .. but he's damn bloody hell irritatin i tell you .. okay cos the day after camp we went out together to watch "drag me to hell" but he was unable to make it caused he had some meeting in school , so we went ahead without him. so the next few days he had been msging shihong and myself about the movie and stuffs , until 2 days back he msged me saying something like " the show okay only leh " like wau liew...not like i forced him to watch or something or should i say i didnt even ask him to watch la ... and he could still continue de conversation despite me talking in this manner .. i tell you i pei fu him lo ... argh!!!!

some people recently are really pissing me off man ...

14 June 2009

2009-06-14T06:58:00.000-07:00

back to update on E2 Matrix camp as promised :)

1st Day (E2 Matrix)
met shihong in the morning at the bridge..
we were kinda late and rushing over to lt28 (if i didnt rmb wrongly again)
arrived at lt28 , looked around, and found out that we were one of the early birds:)
registered and found a seat ..
was watching youtube while waiting for the rest :)
after somewhat like half an hour or so, briefing finally started.
but the number of people in de lecture threate was still far from what we expected.
never mind, whatever it is, we still continue with the activities .
after adding the helpers , mo and organiser..
we actually had quite a number of people ..
we later started off the camp with some japanese exchange programs
we were supposed to walked with some bamboo stick as a team for the first station.
and we emerged first :) yeppie:)
cant rememeber the second station already. but there was one where we were supposed to go through the bamboo stick as it gets lower and lower and some spider web kinda thing where we were made to cross over without going through the same hole twice and also something where we were supposed to arrange ourselves according to what the organiser request on the bench:)
and i was always at one of the ends la .. and they purposely make it a point where i have to cross over everyone. and we lose for that particular game the forfeit was some sort of skit. as i was the only girl in the group the story line was some kinda snatch gf thingy

at the later part of the day , we set off for food hunt. clues were given to us and we were supposed to get to the venue and get the next clues:) had roti john at simpang bedok , nasi lemak at changi village and waffle opposite school :)
fun !! and we were the last cause we actually waited for a bus at pasir ris interchange for half an hour without knowing that the last bus was at 1930 and it was already 2030 at that time .. dumb huhs.. nvm ... at least we did have fun :)

2nd Day (E2 Matrix)
the second day was set aside for amazing race.
the race was super exhausting and tedious .. and nevertheless , we enjoyed ourselves very much again :) just let the pictures do the talking since i cant really recall very single detail :)

we had alot of other activites which doesnt have pictures:) but i cant possibily type out everything here :)
had night walk later after amazing race , i was very stubborn , as we were given approximately an hour to wash up after dinner and before night walk .. i insisted that i must shower evern when everyone thought that we was kinda useless since that was since activities after that .
but nvm , luckily i didnt perspire a bit during the walk :)
we were made to watch the movie "unborn" before the walk itself, however , maybe its the atmosphere that we were watching in the LT or the graphics of the movie just wasnt good , everyone was eaither laughing or dozing off throughout the movie.
went for the night walk with Hock Keong and we managed to find the clue. :)
and to admit it was kinda scary actually , but i didnt wanted to show it out , so i just tried to laugh throughout the walk :D
and of cos there was lotsa funny things that happen and we were sharing among ourselves when we met at the LT again :)
things like boxing the ghost , pushing the door too hard without knowing there was someone at the back .. hahhahahahhas... and for Hock Keong , he was made to return the light sticks . hahahhas.. freaking funny i tell you :) imagine a "ghost"telling you "return me my light" .. hahahahs..

3rd Day (E2 Matrix)
had dance in the morning , some kinda unknown dance followed by TP mass dance and xi shuang shuang :) FUN!!! :) hahhahahs. pictures again :)

the last activity for the day and also the camp
FINAL CLASH :)
water bombing session .. hahhahahs

i think that should be all .. damn tired already :)
last but not least
KOPI-O rox :)

13 June 2009

2009-06-12T09:11:00.001-07:00

finally found the time and mood to update my blog :D

enjoyed myself very much these few days :)
having attended two camps( BB Sub-Com Camp , E2 Matrix Camp)

let me try to recall everything that happened in BB Camp :)
anyway , its a 2 days 1 night camp ... everything was kinda rush die to the limited time we had:)

DAY 1 (BB CAMP)
finished my last paper at 430pm
made my way down to LT 33 (if i didnt rmb wrongly) with ShiHong for registration.
registered, was later grouped into 4/5 different empires.. i was in cuckoo clock.
and seperated from ShiHong, she was in hour glass..
started our first acticity soon after .
ice breaking session, went on kinda smoothly and everybody was somehow or rather bonded at the end of it . cant really remember the rest of the activities , but i remember going opposite school for dinner and we ended up da-baoing back to school as we were already late :)
and we turned out to be the earliest group :)
started our night activity after that .. was some station game :)
after the games we had to design our empire shirt and we ended up going being able to sleep at 4am :( and i didnt sleep la.. the aircon wasnt working and there wasnt any ventilation in the room... brought my sleeping bag for nothing.

DAY 2 ( BB CAMP)
i really remember what we did.. hahhas.. as far as i can remember we played tug of war , some throw egg thing from level 8 and lastly we had some food game like having to blow a ballon till it burst before the other member can eat the food assigned at individual stations:)

now let the pictures do the talking :)
(only pictures within my empire)

shall continue with E2 camo tmr :)

23 May 2009

2009-05-23T08:58:00.000-07:00

had been a rather busy week for me .
having 3 quiz and a presentation and chinese compo due next week .
work is really piling up ..
and i doubt i ever have the chance to complete everything to get ready for term test which starts from 1st june and ends on 5th june.. i'm like damn hell suay ... 4 papers okay .. and it takes up the entire week which is set aside for term test , usually i will start holidays before the rest .. but this time ...... !!!!! ARGH!!!! disappointed can ?
anyway just a brief update on whats happening:)
cant really recall everything ... cause school was such a routine ... just skul , lunch , and than home:)

anw, went out with shihong and joan with jiebin and co. on the first friday (15 May)
and again our plan had a change at the very last minute.
and we ended up going to KTV :)

Shihong and JieBin:)

"sua-ku" me trying to figure out how to insert songs:D

haha.. "ge-hou" me and the dont know what BK (burger king)

the 3 of us :) (i dont know why i look somewhat drunk and weird)

joan and i :)

"zi-high"queen in action again -_-"

BK ( burger king)

oh, forgot to add , went with shihong in the earlier part of the day to concorde hotel to grab cheap stuffs at l'oreal sales:D

our steals on the day :D

and some random pictures taken in the toiler at school :)

shihong (bitch),siti(slut/cityhall) , iqah and myself :)

and for the friday this week (22 may)

met joan for dinner with shihong the siao cha-bor:)

went to centrepoint for ba-chor mee :) (minced pork noodle)

and guess wad... shihong that toot , broke her slippers..

argh!! and the worst part is .... she insisted on getting only "ripples"

what the hell , we tried out luck at cineleisure(being quite sure that hula & co have it)

to to our disappointment , they do not sell any slipper/flip flop at all

next station -> HMV

like that's so many shops selling teenage stuffs there .. but guess wad ...

none of them sells "ripples"

had no choice at last cause she inisted on only "ripples" and "ripples"

initially , joan insisted on going to plaza sing by foot , but guess wad ..

her suddenly had cramps /muscle pull on her right foot ...

hhahahas... f*cking funny la ... she was trying to like "fold her foot in the middle on the pavement and shihong actuallu helped her ..

never mind, at last we still took a bus after walking one bus stop , so much for trying to save on the bus fare huhs? hahahs...

after getting the slippers, we were all too shag to even walk, so we decided to settle down at starbucks and shihong went to check the movie slots before that :)

today (23 May)

received a call form shihong in the morning telling me about some chalet ,

headed down to the chalet , reached there around 4 ,

and there wasnt much people except birthday boy's family :)

decided to play big2 at last :)

had our early dinner and helped out here and there for the BBQ :)

我只是想要一个很容易的回复，

但你往往都没给我。

你到底想我则么样做，你才会开心，才会满足呢？

我真的真的好累，我不想每天傻傻的想着如何才会让你感觉到开心

但自己要沉受这么多痛苦和不开心。

我知道你一定觉得我很烦。

那你就狠狠的跟我说出你想要的。

让我们最后一次在这个没结果的东西中画出一个句号

:):)

14 May 2009

2009-05-13T08:32:00.000-07:00

Sometimes perhaps we should do some self reflection before blaming or pushing the blame to anyone else but ourselves.
Human have emotionals, which sometimes lead to us acting on impulse and later regretting or even reprimanding ourselves.
But there is also a handful who never fails to find excuses or reasoning for thier mistakes just to avoid the faults and mistakes.
Maybe those are also the few that often feel out of place and neglected by everyone.
Always treat a friend with a truthful heart if you expect to be treated likewise, i belief what goes around comes around.
I really wish everyone can just get together and avoid those awkward situations just because nobody tries to understand the other party.
Once a friend always a friend, although things may sometimes turn ugly. but the bond stays in a way or another :)

Went to concode hotel earlier as there was a on going loreal sales... the stuffs there are even lower than half price la. spent a total of 300 plus getting skin care and make up :) damn worthy it. people faster hurry down to get your bargain too , if i'm not wrong the sales end on sat :) its on de third level of concode hotel and its held in a ballroom... :):):)

School today was tiring and damn boring, ended CDS early as the teacher know that we have to do a replacement for our ez-link cards. (i dont have to , cause i lose my the other time and am already holding on to the new one) accompanied shi hong , melvin and zi ang to auditorium to get the one for one replacement :) and of course shihong did her stupid actions and moves again ... argh!!! melvin had to go back to class and i just slack around with shihong and her BB club friends.. and they did the xi shua shua dance...didnt know what gave them the courage la .. hahhahs... there were like quite a number of people walking past somemore.. haiyo ... but nvm la.. lols... shihong is forever buay pai seh one ... hahhahahahahahas....!!! anyway had lunch with shihong , melvin and desmond today , it was damn funny la... shihong and her rubbish again .. :D

that's all for today , gotta go finish up my wireless project and networking tutorial :)

Finally Back!!!

2009-05-09T04:18:00.000-07:00

i'm finally back to update my blog . hahas..
i'm not sure if there is anyone who comes here occasionally to check if i have updated .
but friends i see almost everyday have been nagging that my blog is as good as died ..
hahas..:)

everything is going fine for now ..
school has already reopen for near to a month ..
certain things as changed, and i'm sure everyone has somehow adapted to this change.
maybe somethings are better left this way to prevent things from souring further.
since not everyone can accept everyone's way of handling stuffs.
why not just keep it as it is now :)

of course have been rather died and boring since sch reopen ,
curfews are implemented, no more life like holidays:)
whatever it is , i must work alot harder for this semester and pull up for GPA .
sounds unrealistic , but i really wanna get into a uni :D

i have lots of photos to update.
since my birthday celebrate , my first clubbing experiences , and the list goes on ..
but i'm seriously too lazy to do so after trying to figure out all those stupid html codings. .

AND

i'm damn scare i really nobody want la :(
although i have been constantly telling my friends that
i rather to stay single and lalallalalalllalals.....
but its like so cock right ?
looking at my classmates and friends talking about thier r/s .. argh!!!!!
but i'va got JOAN YONG !!!
hahahahs... my forever steady friend when it comes to shopping , dining and gossiping ...not forgetting someone who really pays attention to whatever you have to tell her .. hahahs..
thanks :)
had grown closer to Shihong since school reopen and somehow it feels kinda carefree to talk to her , maybe cos we're of the same character and we just say whatever we like , i can just chat freely .. and i just found out from her that guys in my class actuallu dont like me bacause i'm too straight forward :( sorry if i really did offended some of you :) i will be more tactful of how i speak now alright .. hahas
and Michelle Pang Kee Yan , althought we are somehow going through de same thing , you can ALWAYS feel free to tell me how you feel de la:) i'm alright de... really :) sometimes i may not reply , but must understand ma , my hp bill explode le .. hahahs..not that you cant talk to me .. and i updated le hors... stop cursing me ... :D

PICTURES!!!!

16 Feb 2009

2009-02-15T09:20:00.000-08:00

just wanna post a simple update of what i did for past few days since i haven been doing so:)

9 Feb (mon)

had lessons till 5 , met up with my CDS mate for final discussion on our business plan , i almost loss my temper on a particular team-mate .. f*cking irratting i tell you .. kept complaining that he wanted to go home and stuffs.. argh!! when he fraking hell didnt contribute anything.. met Melvin Chan and we went Toa payoh's koufu for dinner.. went home after that .

10 Feb (tues)

was late for my first lesson which was my MOE presentation , heng heng , de teacher wasnt calculative :) hahas.. finally over and done with one module .

some "farewell" pictures taken . hahas

went for maths and PSPS lessons , finally i dont have to see that PSPS teacher anymore , she's damn irritating de lo .. arghs... went to free access lab for OOP project , actually i feel bad , i couldnt help much , cause i'm OOP knowledge is like so limited .. than kelvin msg-ed me saying that he's in the library and stuffs , den he came down to the lab to meet me , off we went off to bishan , (he was nice enough to send me there .. thanks)

just some random pictures taken during the journey '

met tessa , hanxiang and donald under donald's block ..
went to J8 for dinner , didnt eat cause they had LJS ..
eeww...
than off we went to thomson for lan
played left 4 dead..
hahhas... i'm like damn dumb la , kept losing my way .. ..
luckily tessa was nice enough to guide me along the game :)
thanks girl..
den home sweet home ..
donald duck was nice enough to send me home ..
hahas

11 Feb (wed)
cant really remember what happened..
went to school , same routine ..
full stop

12 Feb (thur)

was feeling quite moody the entire day.. dont know what got over me ..
whatever la... arghs!!!

13 Feb (fri)

went to school , had OOP presentation ... like finally i'm done with this so unfamilar topic ...
went out with Joan and Mag to get the things i wanted to prepare for him ..
bought the baking ingredients and a addidas wind breaker for him ..
(thanks girls for accomapany me ):)

14 Feb (sat)

okay , i can say i'm a total failure...
i know it's impossible already ..
whatever it is . i didnt meet him and everything is still with me .
met up with Elston and Lester at Hougang mall ..
had pepper lunch for lunch.
seeing those couples really doesnt make me feel good at all la..
okay . they knew wasnt in a good mood , and Elston was nice enough to get me this doggy cum flower thing :)

went to E-hub and played aracde , den cabbed down to boat quay cause they ordered some flowers for some girl .
went to sing KTV at some place along boat quay ..
than home sweet home..

8 Feb 2009

2009-02-07T13:12:00.000-08:00

sometimes i wonder why must we stay up till de wee hours of the night just to complete certain projects , depriving ourselves from sleep and fun .having such "no life" days just to ? bloody hell get one cert at the end of three years. like just look around now, how many people are doing just as fine having a n level or o level cert , they can even look for jobs whereas we cant due to commitment in school . without a job leads to lesser indulgences in things like clothes, cosmetic etc.

and just look at myself in the mirror , i freaking hell look like so rubbish who do not own a bed or something.. KNS la...!!!

and now look at that few damn pages of report i stayed up to finish

time check ... its 530 in the morning.. argh!!!!

05 Feb 2008

2009-02-05T01:56:00.000-08:00

today is LOVELLE PEH's birthday , so of cause the first thing i will blog about is to wish her HAPPY BIRTHDAY .!!!!
hahahs, something caught my eyes the other day at Junction 8 , i wanted to buy that one for lovelle .. kinda cute la.. i walker kinda thing which can be converted into a "car car " . hahas..
but on second thought , forget it . i will never get to pass it to her .. maybe when there's really i chance to i would rush down to get it for her.. HAHAHAHAHAHAS.. (i'm her gan-ma , not sure if i'm still treated as one , but whatever is it , i was the first to know her presence when MICHELLE PANG that blur toot found out ) . hahas..

now back to my school work , we finally cleared WEBAPP2 project .. and i got full marks for maths quiz , which of course is teacher close both eyes de la.. he check le return me to amend leh .. so its of cos not if my own capability .. ahhahs... i obviously couldnt find the time to study ..
now i'm left with NETFUND discussion board , MOE balance sheet and 4Ps , OOP ....
and i seriously have no idea how am i going to do OOP...

anyway can there we some traffic in my blog , can anyone that reads my blog tag .. or not its gonna be quite a waste of time to blog for myself to read right ? lols ..

and i watch the both local movies le , "love matters " and i think it's "the wedding of the year".

"love matters" is kinda dumb la , just about men and women getting down to those stuffs and of cause elderly men going into endopause.. hahahs.. hui ge is super cute .. his son is even worst , super toot!!! hahahs..

"the wedding of the year" strongly discouraged to watch , stupid lo , no beginning no ending de..
two stupid person getting married and expects it to be a big thing of the year .. no storyline de la.. not even touching lo...

tell me tell me people ... how to know if you really like someone .. hahahs. is staring into space smiling and giggling to yourself while thinking of his silly actions and words IN LOVE <3.>

hahahs..

tag me tag me to tell me .. ahhahs

4 feb 2009

2009-02-03T23:26:00.000-08:00

sometimes i wonder , what's the definition of true friends?
how much i wanted to cover every single thing for you so as to salvage your relationship with him .
but in the first place , what de hell did i do wrong ..
why isit that my image have to be tarnish again and again . ?
he wasnt the first one i was treated as a scape-goat .

i seriously dont wanna think about such things to destroy de bond we have within. but dont you find that things have been carried too far sometimes?
you can always save that image of yours and destroy mine without thinking?

just touch that heart of yours, have i not tried my best every single time to help you when you're in need since then ?

is this a so called friendship/sisterhood should be like ?

1 Feb 2009

2009-02-01T03:19:00.001-08:00

i'm finally here to update..

my blog had been dead for so long la..

i feel damn sian now lo , all de projects piling up and stuffs.

i need to completemy part for CDS project ...

but all the figures are driving me crazy la..

regret taking financial plan la .. i can never get resources from the internet (ctrl c , ctrl v).

and i think i'm not a person good with numbers..

the thing just dont tally la..

argh!!!!!!

projects on hand

-management of entreprise

-telecommunication and systems

-networking fundamentals

-object oriented programming

and out of these four , 3 is due next week ..

tell me how screwed am i ..

and i really dont have the mood to do anything now la..

projects are making me feel damn moody ..

so people if i happen to behave in a different manner or do or say anything stupid ..

pardon me yah ..

18 Jan 2009

2009-01-18T06:59:00.000-08:00

i'm still short of CNY clothes up to now ..
can anybody tell me where to get nice bottoms ...
its so hard to get something that looks nice on me , with a figure like mine .. :(
sad case right ? :(:(

finally we got everything essential for CNY , drinks , flower , and blah blah blah ...
now i'm just short of a bottom ..
help :(
and kinda stressed with projects..
its always this period of de semester :(
when projects are so close to deadlines..

anyway , this song is kinda meaningful right ?
just browse through de lyrics..
hahhas..

9 Jan 2009

2009-01-09T04:25:00.000-08:00

finally found some time to blog or should i say the mood to blog .. hahahs
didnt go for e-guides today , went for pizza hut at tampines mall with shihong , derick , yuhui and qiwen.
after lunch , the guys went to the arcade while shihong and i went to shop around..
tampines is the borest place to shop i tell you...
although it looks so big with (tampines mall and century sqaure)
but theres really nothing to buy lo...

went for e-guides yesterday , super tiring , kept cheering ..
those visitors must be thining that we're crazy or something .. hahas...
but the TP mass dance was really fun ...
that's the only time you can see all tp students being so united...
damn fun la ... lols..
went to dhoby guant after that to meet joan ,
met up with qizhong at staubucks after that for some job lobang thing ..
went for the seminar and stuffs like that ..
okay , things turned abit ugly later , and i need to Qizhong if he ever sees this...
sorry ...
came home after that , super tired...

THAN , something really terrible happened ..
as i was saying i was so super tired , i didnt pay attention to my surroundings at all ..
to the extend that i didnt even know know that someone was behind following me ...
until my mother told saw a shadow behind me from de living room ..
at that time , i was already in the house locking the gates..
i took a peep out , and i saw this guy hiding behind that wall peeping into my house also ..
my mother shouted and he ran off ...
we were so frightened la..
waited for my dad to reach home , seek for his advice on whether to make a police report ..
and he said he was of cos better to make one...
walked to tanglin head quaters , made a report...
kinda scary to walk into a police station la...
just wanna get over and done quickly and leave that place..
returned home to finish my java project , which at last i didnt .
went to bed after that ... :)

15 Dec 2008

2008-12-14T23:00:00.001-08:00

finally found time to create a decent blog ..
:)
hahhas, how long will i stay on this blog again .. hahas
lets see k .. kinda tired already ,the alignment and stuffs was giving me so much problems just now .. thats all for now .. :)